Life as a Loced Flower

So my father called me two nights ago and perusal I hung up feeling empty and annoyed. Why you ask? Well the first thing is that he told me “I was in new York during the thanksgiving holiday and I kept telling your sister that we should call you but then I’d forget.” ugh! Geee thanks dad! sticks up middle finger

Why would you ever tell your Child that you forget to call them especially when you forget to tell them you are back in the country. Though that wasn’t the only thing that pissed me off. He finally called to tell me about my new sister…that’s right a NEW 3 month old sister. Now that makes 6 kids for my dad by 5 women which wouldn’t annoy me so much if he didn’t keep having kids by flings. (definition of flings for my dad…women he’s with when he’s lonely and then not with again)

I mean since she’s my sister I already care for her but I’m really pissed and hurt by the fact that all three of our initials are the same. I know that sounds trivial but my entire life I’ve tried to get him to know my name and how to spell it or when my bday is. I’m about to be 25and he doesn’t know these things. Now there’s a baby who has a lot of similar letters to get name as to mine. My mom thinks it’s funny that he’s “replaced me.” gee thanx mom!

For the past two nights she’s been teasing me about it though I think in her way she’s trying to make me feel better by laughing it off but I’m not there yet. I guess always wanting to be a daddy’s girl is more harmful to you when ur dad keeps popping out babies.

Oh and I’ve decided that I’m not having any kids while my dad still is.